Description of the Book:I am not my illness. “Girl with Anxiety,” “Trauma of the Week” — no. I hate stuff like that. Everyone, everyone has their issue. But the one thing my illness did make me realize is how necessary it is to ignore the dangers of living in order to live. And how much trouble you can get into if you can’t.Jade DeLuna is too young to die. She knows this, and yet she can’t quite believe it, especially when the terrifying thoughts, loss of breath, and dizzy feelings come. Since being diagnosed with Panic Disorder, she’s trying her best to stay calm, and visiting the elephants at the nearby zoo seems to help. That’s why Jade keeps the live zoo webcam on in her room, and that’s where she first sees the boy in the red jacket. A boy who stops to watch the elephants. A boy carrying a baby.
His name is Sebastian, and he is raising his son alone. Jade is drawn into Sebastian’s cozy life with his son and his activist grandmother on their Seattle houseboat, and before she knows it, she’s in love. With this boy who has lived through harder times than anyone she knows. This boy with a past.
Jade knows the situation is beyond complicated, but she hasn’t felt this safe in a long time. She owes it all to Sebastian, her boy with the great heart. Her boy who is hiding a terrible secret. A secret that will force Jade to decide between what is right, and what feels right.
Master storyteller Deb Caletti has once again created characters so real, you will be breathless with anticipation as their riveting story unfolds.
Pre-Read: I’m a sucker for a book about someone who has a little bit more than your average struggle in life
While Reading: jade is amazing and I love the way she thinks
Summery: Jade is a senior in high school who has panic attacks. She lives life with the worry of dying even though she’s too young to die. The only thing that keeps her from going crazy is watching the elephants at the zoo right up the zoo. Until one night she see the boy in the red jacket with the baby. she starts to wake up I guess you could say.
Overall Thoughts: I love this story because it is so different. Jade is going through life pretty much. She has the pressure of school. Family drama and everything a normal eighteen year old goes through. I think its something everyone can relate to. Its a great story about growing up and just dealing. Its something i would read again and again. It was amazing if you can get your hands on it.
Rating: I give it a 5 out of 5
Published:February 27th 2007
Source: Public library
Genre:YA, Romance Novel
Age Group:12 and up
Quote(s) I Loved:
“Your sibling, after all, is the only other person in the world who understands how fucked up your parents made you.”
“It was one of those times you feel a sense of loss, even though you didn’t have something in the first place. I guess that’s what disappointment is a sense of loss for something you never had.”
“Stereotypes are fast and easy, but they are lies, and the truth takes its time.”
“Most people, it seems like they’ve only got one part of the equation down. Caring for themselves, or caring for someone else. And I’ve learned how important it is to have both.”
“Love doesn’t seem to fallow a plan; it’s not a series of steps. It can hit with a force of nature….”
“Sometimes love is a surprise, an instant of recognition, a sudden gift at a sudden moment that makes everything different from then on.”